It's Time To Step Back

     Over the past year and a half, my personality has changed immensely. Let me just say that in a lot of ways, I am not a fan of these changes. I'm constantly self aware of the ways I've changed and I feel upset when I think about the person I used to be.
     I know of a lot of collective reasons why this has happened but I have decided that in order to just take a break and step away from everything, next week I will be taking an internet detox. The only exception to this will be me checking my work schedule as I have to do that online. Otherwise there will be no Facebook, Twitter, Netflix, Instagram, and yes, no YouTube. I may check my email just to make sure there's nothing important, but other than those two exceptions, no Internet. I do have a video filmed that I will schedule to put up next week but that is all you will be seeing from me starting Sunday and ending, you guessed it, Sunday. The 18th through the 24th I will be taking an internet detox. I will be making sure all of my friends have my phone number in case anyone wants to chat with me during my time offline. A lot of our lives, including mine, are lived on the internet. I think it will be very good for me to take a step away from all of that and remember everything that is important. None of us HAVE to post a status or a selfie daily. That is a choice we are all making. We also have the choice to log off for a while. I think it will be good for everyone at some point soon to step away for a week. Maybe even longer!

Love you all and I will speak to you soon xx

Regret

     Do you ever just have one of those days where you're filled with regret? Not over anything in particular, but just things that have occurred throughout your lifetime. I woke up this morning, literally 30 minutes ago, with thoughts of regret circulating my brain. Why didn't I let myself enjoy my senior year of high school? Why did I say that thing to that one person in 7th grade? Why did I make a big deal of this and not a big deal of that? Was it my fault that both of my relationships sort of ended abruptly? Is it my fault that I'm single? Why didn't I try harder to keep my relationships? Why have I let my YouTube channel and blog go so much? Why do I let anxiety control my life? Why have I become so unmotivated? I guess it's just one of those days.